So the other night we sat down and started to clean and organize here in the apartment. As I was working on the desk going through the stack of papers I stumbled across a photo I thought I had lost long ago. The photo is of me, I am in my mid 20’s, standing in front of my Citroen Maserati. Back in those days I had hair, I had long hair – down below my shoulders. Another difference back then, I was in a long relationship with a Domina and Pro Domme, our relationship was a personal one not a professional one. Her name was Domina Verushka, she was my introduction and guide to the kink world and to BDSM. It was a wonderful relationship and an amazing introduction. I have been kinky since I dare say the day I was born, many kinks I didn’t know where to classify and there were of course many I was not yet aware of. My relationship with Verushka opened my eyes to new kinks, taught me that I was a Dominant, a Top and a Sadist, taught me how many toys and kinks felt on the receiving end. In those days, it was early days of the Internet, in some ways one might say early days of the scene or perhaps more accurately to say that the scene was more underground. Guided by her, attending parties and events I met so many people, people whose names are synonymous with the scene now, authors, dungeon owners, educators. Its interesting to flash back to half a life time ago to see where I was and where I am today.
I have grown from a confident young man exploring submission and bottoming to an even more confident and successful Dominant and Top. I have grown from a monogamous person into a polyamourous person.
It seems appropriate to reflect around this time of year, though that is not how the cleaning or this started out. This journey I am on, it started before I met Verushka and it continues to this day. It wasn’t until perhaps a decade ago, after my divorce I discovered the burning man community & Poly. That discovery opened a new chapter in my journey. I will not say everyday but many days there are challenges, new discoveries, new ways of dealing with challenges.